Nights Like These

Well, tonight was fun. I enjoy spending time with friends, meeting new people, laughing immensely, and overall having a good time. Tonight though makes me want the one thing I can't really have.

I have never had relationship with a member of the opposite sex, but never in my life have I had the want to have one so bad. The only thing though, is I realize that I am not ready for one.

If I were to be in a relationship, I need to be firmly planted in the Lord and have a strong relationship with Him first before a human. I don't feel that I have that strong relationship and it hurts. Ever since the plague hit, I can't seem to get back on track. I know what an awesome feeling I had when I was with the Lord. It was indescribable. Spiritual highs are so much better than other ways of getting high whether it be drugs or what I know, music.

Sometimes, I think that God is punishing me by not letting me have a guy, but I know that He doesn't punish me for not having a strong relationship with Him. It's more like He is my loving Father who is looking out for me.

If I were to have significant other in my life and He wasn't a godly person, I know that I would fall deeper into a rut that has been in my life for two years now. Yes, two years. As I am laying here writing this, I realize it's been that long and it amazes me. Wow.

I'm listening to music right now and I realize that God gave me music to satisfy myself and I am being too greedy and wanting more. I feel selfish, but my heart yearns for someone to share my secrets, laugh with, keep me warm at night while watching a movie, and all the things a life partner and friend would give. Music doesn't do that. I feel like I can't have what I want, and it makes me feel selfish, and I realize how bad I sound.

Someday maybe I will be with a certain someone, maybe not. But Lord, if you are reading this (which is kinda a silly pondering to ponder) please, please?

I'm sorry, I needed a place to share my thoughts and my blog is my own personal spot to do that. Thank you for reading my rants and rambles and everything else in between. You deserve a cookie.

Seale

Get Out!

Get Out
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God’s Use of Media

It has been awhile since I've posted last, but this one should be pretty good.

 

I was watching one of, if not my favorite, tv shows tonight and when I was done, I got curious. Now curiosity is a tricky emotion. The known saying of "curiosity killed the cat" (by the way my cat finds this very derogatory, although she is very curious and seems like she is getting into sticky situations all the time) has proved itself to be untrue in some definite situations. For instance, what I am writing about tonight: can God use media to arouse curiosity about Him and His mysterious ways? I believe He does. I say this because I feel like he has used multiple ways to get my attention and focus on Him. Unfortunately, I don't always keep my curiosity which leads to a path of loneliness and fear. But what has God done to prove that He does use media? I have a definite example.

 

October 2008.

I started reading the series "Left Behind" and got deep involved. Little did I know that the story of Buck and the end of the world would change my habits and thoughts. "Left Behind" starts with the rapture. The rapture is when God will (and I mean it) taking his followers and protect them from what is to come after that. After the rapture, is to become a period of complete chaos and destruction.

"When the Lamb opened the second seal, I heard the second living creature say "Come!" Then another horse came out, a fiery red one. Its rider was given power to take peace from the earth and make men slay each other. To him was given a large sword."

 

This passage is from Revelations, the last book in the Bible. It only describes a tiny piece of what will happen. Any rate, "Left Behind" gave descriptions of what was happening, and it made me wonder if this was really going to happen. Was the earth really going to go down like this?

I started reading Revelations and other passages that would give me answers. I started taking more interest in God, more than being just a "Sunday and Wednesday" Christian. I would sit in my car in the parking lot of the park near my house after work and listen to Casting Crowns, read, pray, and totally break down before my Lord. I found myself in Him, just because I got interested from a book series.

 

Now

 

I feel like it's happening again, this time with a television series "Supernatural." Yes, I can realize the definite fiction parts of the show, but they use vivid imagery of how the end of the world may actually come about. Tonight, I watched an episode where the very passage I mentioned above came to life. Now the red horse was a sweet cherry red mustang. The owner of the mustang was reeking war on this town, causing hallucinations and doubt. They even use passages from Revelations!

 

There are other examples of God using media to draw people back to Him. I listen to the radio all the time with people stating the music helped them come closer to God.

 

I believe God has a purpose for everything and everyone. He uses our own devices to bring us back to Him.

He is an awesome God, and I wish everyone else would see that. Peace.

 

Seale

 

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